Rhiain Abigaile ♥ A Little Princess

♥ My Forever Princess Baby!xXxXxXx

Just a quick note to say that I'm home from the hospital-again and doing much better, the twins are
ok although they are small one is particularly small compared to how they should be. Thank you for
the kind messages left for me and Rhiain and for the lovely candles, tributes & gifts that have been
left for her. i hope you're all good, i will reply to everyone when i can but i am taking things
slowly for a little while so probably won't be here much. best wishes to everyone & thanks again.
Love Kate xxxxx

We have decided on names for the twins finally, they will be called Alissa-Rhiain and
Alivia-Abigaile, we chose to use Rhiain's names as the twins middle names so that she'll always be
with them.xxxxx

WE ARE HAVING GIRLS!


RHIAIN IS GOING TO BE A BIG SISTER TO THE TWINS I AM PREGNANT WITH, THEY ARE FRATERNAL TWINS
(NON-IDENTICAL, IN SEPERATE SACS) AND ARE DUE AROUND THE 25TH FEB 2010

Rhiain's photographs have all had copyright added to them~please DO NOT use Rhiain's photographs for
anywhere other than her site!!

☆·.¸¸Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ◄███▓▒░░ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ჱܓ Angel Rhiain Abigaile
Leigh ჱܓ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ░░▒▓███► Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ¸¸.·☆

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PLEASE LEAVE ME A MESSAGE.xXxXx

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----*,,,,,,,,(.)””(.),,,,,,,,*☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸.Within my store of memories
------*,,,,,,( ’o’, ),,,,,,*☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸.You hold a special part
-------*,,,()LOVE(),,,*☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸.For no one else could every be
-----*,,,,,,,(_)-(_),,,,,,,*☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸.More cherished in my heart
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☆I was blessed with an angel,
☆A beautiful angel was she,
☆My angel had to leave me,
☆In my heart she will always be.


♡ღ♥ღ♡ღ♥ღ♡ღ♥ღ♡ღ♥ღ♡ RHIAIN ABIGAILE
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★ ☆ ★ This page has been created for my special little princess Rhiain Abigaile Leigh. I
created a page for her a little while ago but after a few days found my heart was hurting to much to
be here. I feel a little more prepared now and know what to expect. So thank you in advance everyone
who takes the time to write to my princess. xxxx ★ ☆ ★

═══╔══╗Gone But
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═══║══║My daughter
═══║══║Rhiain Abigaile
═══║══║Passed Away
═══║══║To Cot Death.x


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╚═╩═╩═╩═╝╚╝╚═╩═╝ ♥ My Special Princess, Rhiain Abigaile, I L٥ﻻ
ﻉ√٥υ f٥гﻉ√ﻉr! ♡X♡

Rhiain was and still is the most important part of my life, my first born baby, my everything!!

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________________.OOOOOOOOOOO. * . * . ☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸. ♫ How I wonder where you are,
_25.12.06_-.OOOOOOOOOOOOO. * . * . ☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸. ♫ Up above my world so high,
__TO_.OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. * . * . ☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸. ♫ You're my Diamond in the sky,
_31.12.07_-.OOOOOOOOOOOOO. * . * . ☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸. ♫ Twinkle, twinkle Rhi-Rhi star,
_______________.OOOOOOOOOOO. * . * . ☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸. ♫ Oh I wonder how you are.
__FOREVER_______.OOOOO._-.OOOO. * . * . ☆·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸. Lots of Love Mummy.xx
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_________xXxXx__.O._______* Remember Rhi, you are forever my special princess.xxxxx

I was shocked when I first found out that I was expecting Rhiain, her Dad and I had been together
for quite a while and were using protection, however after a few weeks of feeling run down my Mum
joked 'was I pregnant' which is when I realised that I possibly could be, after taking the test and
waiting those few anxious minutes the test was positive and that is where Rhiain's journey started.
The pregnancy was easy-well considering how i had imagined pregnancy would be it was a breeze. The
nightmare stories you hear never applied to me, a little sickness in the beginning but that was the
lot. I sailed through all of my check-ups and loved every second of carrying my baby. My partner was
with me through every step, that is until the 27 weeks scan. we saw our baby for the first time in
4D, able to make out the little fingers and toes so clearly and each of our baby's expressions, it
all became too much responsibility for him and he left us-never to be seen again. It was
disapointing but it wasn't a problem because i knew i could love our baby enough for the both of
us.

(."v".)
...'v' Love you beautiful princess.xxxx

I chose not to find out whether I was having a boy or a girl because as a soon to be single Mummy i
wanted the surprise and as long as my baby was healthy i wasn't concerned with which gender would
greet me. I rushed around with my parents and friends buying everything the baby could need, lots of
cream and lemon coloured clothes-carefully avoiding pinks and blues. Making sure the baby's bedroom
was perfect-I love to decorate and spent hours doing Winnie the Pooh pictures on the walls and
making it fit for my little Prince or Princess. I chose names for each Rhian Ethan for a boy
(Rhian-a welsh name after my welsh heritage pronounced Ryan and Ethan because i think it is a nice
name) or as it was to be Rhiain Abigaile for my girl (Rhiain, welsh again pronounced Ree-anne and
Abigaile because i think it's pretty.)

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`·.♥ FOR RHIAIN.xxxxxx

Rhiain arrived on Christmas Day 2006, a Monday, it was early evening, my family had sat down to
christmas dinner at 1pm and there was no sign of baby arriving, just a few twinges now and again but
nothing to trigger the race to hospital. Until around 4pm when my waters broke, everything then
moved really quickly by 7.57pm Rhiain Abigaile arrived via a natural birth weighing 6lb 1oz
screaming with all her mite telling the whole delivery ward that she was there and that her lungs
were healthy! It was the most amazing feeling in the world to look down at my baby, the tiny little
person i had just brought into the world, the massive surge of love and desperate need to protect
her was there and strong.

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★~ A TRUE CHRISTMAS BLESSING ~★
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We spent five days together in the maternity wards getting used to bath times and feeds, learning
her different cries and what they each meant. Until Saturday 30th December when we went to our home,
it was just me and Rhiain yet she had visitors all the time, my friends and family were amazing to
us especially her Nanny and Grandad (my parents) who could not do enough for us-for their first
Grandchild. We spent the next day at home surrounded by family and close friends watching the New
Year in quitely. It was perfect i was surrounded by the people i loved the most and my daughter who
i cherished so much! Rhiain slept through it although I never knew how though with all the fireworks
on our estate, and the rest of us watched the fireworks from London on the TV.

(¨`·.·´¨) (¨`·.·´¨)
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×°× `·.¸.·´ ×°× So much love for you baby.xxxxx


On January 1st I turned 20. Again it was a quite celebration but i would not have had it any other
way. My parents came round to visit us and cooked a nice dinner and my friends came all day,
showering Rhiain with kisses and cuddles, she got more attention the me the birthday girl, but my
heart swelled everytime someone told me how beautiful she was-something i already knew but hey, it's
nice to be told over and over again!!

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Rhiain and I then spent the most perfect year together. I'd sing to her all the time it is something
i still do now but cry everytime. Twinkle Twinkle Rhi Rhi Star was her favourtite. (Rhi Rhi was her
nickname) We spent hours playing together having cuddles and kisses, reading stories. I loved to be
with my princess! It was difficult at times being a single Mum but I wouldn't have changed a second
of our time together.

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(¸.•´ (¸.•´ .•´ ¸¸.•¨¯`♥ I miss you Rhi, with every beat of my ♥

Rhiain was a very clever little girl, saying her first word which was uttered at the lake we always
used to visit 'Guck' while pointing at a duck, closely followed by 'mama' which was lovely! She
learnt to stand at 8 and a half months and was wobbly walking-holding on to the sofa and people as
she went by 11 months she was really beginning to master walking and on her 1st birthday was able to
toddle around well. Although my family is not very religious i chose to have Rhiain christened, a
day surrounded by family and friends celebrating my princess, she looked stunning in her white frock
with simple black flower detail, a bit unconventional but beautiful.

(."v".)
...'v' Special girl xxxx


Christmas December 25th 2007 saw us celebrate Rhiain's 1st Birthday; opening Christmas presents from
Father Christmas at home and then birthday presents at Nanny and Grandad's after our dinner. Rhiain
was spoilt rotten by everyone but she deserved everything, and yet she was most impressed with the
wrapping paper!!


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New Years Eve 2007 became the worst day of my life-the beginning of my existance in life as apose to
really living. Rhiain had been a wonderful baby, never really poorly except a bit of colic early on,
however she was very fussy on that day, refusing to feed, not wanting to play or be cuddled. So
early evening I bathed her and sang her to sleep hoping she'd feel better after a rest, I regularly
went into check on her but at 10pm I went in and she wasn't breathing-i tried to get her back but it
was no good, my little princess had gone to heaven leaving me behind a broken hearted Mummy. (That's
as much as I want to say about that night because it is to painful)

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♥«´¨`•RHIAIN•´¨`»♥
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I spent the next day-my 21st birthday (which I forgot at the time) sitting next to my princess in
the hospital refusing to let her go. It was tourture and everyday has been since! There was no
explination for Rhiain's passing and it was quite unusual as the risk of cot death lowers to almost
o% at 1 year of age-all I can come up with is that she was far to special to be part of the cruel
world.

Rhiain's funeral was held on January 30th we had to wait 4 weeks because of the autopsy she had to
have. The funeral took place at our local Crematorium, Rhiain spent the day and night before at home
where my mum and i dressed her in a fairy outfit along with tiara, wand, wings and slippers to keep
her tiny toes warm. she was then put to rest in her cot for the night where i sat next to her
singing Rhi Rhi Star and stroking her hair. It was a very weird experience, her skin was a strange
colour and her lips looked blue and icey, but it meant the world to me to be able to do that. On the
morning of the 30th i got to have a final cuddle with Rhiain before the funeral directors arrived to
help put Rhiain in her casket - of course it was pink a lovely candyfloss colour, it was lined with
pink satin and i had arranged to have scented rose petals put in for Rhiain to lay on top of, they
again were pink. i put Rhiain in myself which was so difficult i didn't want to let her go. But
after a lot of tears when i had finally put her down i placed her wand and a pink rose in her hands,
i stroked her face and straightened her tiara. Next came my final goodbye, i leant down and kissed
her forehead and told my Rhi Rhi Star the i loved her and always would, i tucked her favourite teddy
in beside her and a few photographs and our family. i had also written her a letter which i put
beside her. after one more kiss i left the room, it was to much for me to watch the funeral
directors screw her lid down. Because Rhiain's father was never in her life it was my dad who
carried her casket to the car and then in to the crematorium. (That is enough for now. i cant write
anymore)

I miss her so much and wish i could have her back with me-she was loved by so many people especially
me, her Nanny and Grandad, Aunties, Uncles, cousins and friends.

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Without my Princess i don't know how to carry on, her 2nd birthday, her 1 year Angel Day both have
passed and my heart still breaks the same! I visit her garden everyday and still sing to her all the
time.

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My Rhiain loved all things Disney especially princess, Winnie the Pooh, she loved music and dancing,
she loved pink, playing at the park, feeding the ducks or 'gucks' as Rhi called them, bath times,
stories, kisses and cuddles. She is still my perfect little princess and always will be special.

I MISS YOU BABY GIRL HERE ARE MILLIONS OF
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Rhiain was a big lover of music, even at her tender age, she loved to dance in her own ways and bop
to music, for her page I have chosen


♫·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸. Twinkle Little Star - Because thoughtout Rhiain's life and since I have
always sang it to her (Our adapted version being Rhi Rhi Star)·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸.♫

♫·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸. Change - The Sugababes, Because this was played at Rhiain's funeral, when
we visited Rhiain at the chapel, the first song on the radio once we were back in the car was this
and i remember feeling so sad and unable to express what i was feeling and then i listened to the
lyrics of this song and they touched my heart. ·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸.♫


♫·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸.Colour of the Wind - From Pocohontas, Because Rhiain loved Disney and we
sat for hours watching Disney films and reading Disney stories. Pocohontas was one of our
favourites. ·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸.♫

♫·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸. Beauty and the Beast - From the Disney film for the same reason as Colour
of the wind but also because Rhiain is my beauty. ·.¸¸.·´¯`·.¸¸.♫

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x~♥~x~EMPTY ARMS~x~♥~x

♥My Princess in heaven, you live on in my heart♥
♥I know it seems like we are worlds apart♥
♥I always wonder how it will be♥
♥When we finally get to see,
♥Eachother when it is my time♥
♥Then I will fill these empty arms of mine♥
♥For its a love beyond all compare♥
♥You are my angel,and one day I'll be there♥
♥To hold you in my empty arms one day♥
♥This is my dream in each and every way♥
♥Sweet dreams my darling, I now blow a kiss♥
♥For my princess, I will always miss....♥
♦Copyright© Ros Roberts 2009♦

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